yes another one from me... before i have to scoot off to meet i'm-forced-to-study-in-china boy... do i have time to type out one coherent post in like 20 mins? i think i have that capability... provided i don't digress... which is precisely what i'm doing now. actually i'm waiting for the comp to finish copying a show to my CD-RW... don't ask..

anyways.. it suddenly hit me as i was reading thru my housemates' (yes ex.. but still) blogs.. this question of whether i have led a fulfilling student life. reading thru what they have been doing... i realised that i miss my student life. playing touch rugby... cooking... runing down mat bay (even tho it was soooooo seldom)... having stashes of food in my room... housemates surprisin me with food they cooked... etc etc etc... suddenly working life doesn't seem all that great and honestly i feel like i'm not living my life NOW to the fullest. all i do is work and go home. and occasionally meet pple for dinner. weekends are spent sleeping till noon (and more) and the idle away. or just hanging out with my mom. not that i don't enjoy that.. but for 4 weekends in a row... that has gotta say something about my social life (yes the lack of it).

seeing my housemates getting down to doing what they want to do/plan to do... kinda makes me feel aashamed of myself. yesh i wanna take up photography.. but no i haven't been actively taking photos... yesh i wanna run.. since march.. and i haven't ran even once.. yesh i wanna take up another lang.. but i can't even master jap, that and i haven't called up to check on korean/spanish classes... i wanna learn to salsa/capoeira/akido and no i haven't gotten off my ass to be proactive about it. argghhh!! i hate myself. i'm such a slob.

ONE STEP AT A TIME.. next monday run... tmr call up lang classes... and then maybe aikido.. hopefully now that i have shamed myself on the www i wld be more motivated to get off my lazy fat ass to do it.

just realised that i'm the kind of person who wld say yes.. i wanna change blah blah blah.. but either take a damn long time to get to it.. or NEVER at all. this is so bad for my karma/pysche.. and i think i might have just scare off potential suitors..

i miss perth and the freedom it gave... ~_~



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ps: didn't take me 20 mins.. less than that.. was typing in a flurry tho! time to scoot off! NO MORE INERTIA! INERTIA BE GONE!